Were there times in the past year YOU found anything sexual (esp. penetrative sex) unpleasurable ?

Believe it or not, I have. Yes, even someone like me who has awoken her physical/sexual + emotional/mental + spiritual/energetic bodies … have had them in divine communion … have had at least two incidents in the past year !

These two incidents were with two different men .. one of them I had been on a date with (yeh, only one date) .. and it was a divine double lesson in both knowing where my boundaries were as well as realising I no longer could just “sleep around” like I used to do :/ (yes, I had been going thru what I called a slut phase (which I use in an empowered word) for the last 10 years since my late 20s) …. and the other was part of a three-some (I was the other woman – the “Unicorn” as I’m known in swinger circles) …. I felt fine being with the other woman (interestingly) however as the both the man/woman couple in this circumstance were also dom/sub (man as master) … I wasn’t in the right head-space to be dominated as I was wanting sensuality and other ‘needs’ there weren’t met at the time.

Thus I’d say this percentage is higher if more women readily admitted it.

It’s thanks to these two incidents that I now have very strong (and stable) boundaries around penetrative sex … and am very picky with how I will allow someone (even myself!) penetrate me with penis, vibrators, fingers, tongues or anything 😍😋

I also am more intune with my physical/sexual body for what it needs at any point in time – whether it is energetic, sensual or sexual (‘fuck me now’), domination/submission/kink. Sometimes it’s a mixture of two 😉 as it was for me last weekend when I was with the man in my life (I don’t label the relationship in purpose) .. he intuitively knew exactly what I wanted without me saying 🙂

He had me over his lap (playing into my kinky-nature).. whilst also touching me sensually (which I had been craving all week) … and giving my ass a slap every so often .. whilst also asserting himself enough so that I stayed in surrender (as I did slip out of ‘allowance’ and surrender every so often) … and surrender I did .. and the whole experience was multi-orgasmic. He hardly penetrated me with his fingers .. and NEVER TOUCHED MY CLIT 💓💓

It’s amazing my own personal journey in regards to my clit: I’ve come from ‘only’ being able to get off being clitorial (and not really ‘knowing’ any other orgasms) to being able to get off in multiple ways beyond it .. even in other parts of my body outside of my genitals (back, neck, legs, inner thigh, feet, breasts, etc).

I’m okay with sharing this (even tho’ some people might regard this post as soft porn or erotica) as I want the reminder myself of what is possible .. without actual penis in vagina sex.

That whole experience was so … just … insanely orgasmic on all levels.

This is why I’m incredibly excited about attending Awakening Female Pleasure beyond yoni massage – Brisbane later this month 😁 …. you’ll have to join The Bewitchful Connection ( Body | Love | Sexuality ) for the inside pics, video and insights that I share in regards to the event.

Spirit Rap Meditation by Astarius Miraculii

Spirit Rap Meditation
Copyright 2000 Astarius Miraculii
From CD Spirit Rap & the book Miraculii Song of Ascension

I Invoke, Decree and Dream Awake the full cellular ascension of my being; physical, mental, emotional, spiritual in this Now, with the full support of God/Goddess, the Ascended Master realm to include: Our Ascended Master Self, Father Saint Germain, Sananda, the Holy Mother Mary, Quan Yin / Goddess of mercy, Archangel Michael and the legions, Ashtar and the entire command, Babaji, Raphael, Gabriel, Clan of the Trumpet Angels, Aboriginal and Tribal Shamen, Goddesses of Fortune, Angels of Light, Elohim, Clan of the Serpents, Shiva, All Christ frequencies, All Animal Totems, Elementals of Fire, Air, Water and Earth, all Divine Beings of Light, Love and Ascension, named and unnamed, to activate the cells within my being who are your counterparts. With the unified power of the One, I decree my highest good always operating in this now. I decree grace and mercy always operating in this now. I Invoke decree and dream awake the full truth and reality of Ascension in this Now. I invoke and dream awake with every breath that I breathe, the violet fire, transmuting my whole being. I invoke and dream awake the full current of Ascension in every cell of my being. I AM ASCENDED!

I invoke and dream awake expanded God consciousness, fully realized in me as unlimited abundance fulfilling my every need and desire. I invoke and dream awake the ending of procrastination, tiredness, blockages, obstacles and unhealthy belief systems. I decree immediate abundance in my life. I invoke and dream awake my liberation from all karmic debt. I am Infinite Opulence. I invoke and dream awake my personal empowerment in every instant that anyone is impacted by my Being and Creations. I invoke and dream awake the Infinite empowerment of my sexual, spiritual, mental, emotional, physical and financial relationship with Life. I invoke and dream awake sacred sexuality, erotic innocence, and always express the sacredness of sexual force, for pleasure, creativity and healing. I invoke and dream awake World Universal Healing from all sexual woundedness and shame. I invoke and dream awake world wide release of all 150 manipulating forces and beings who would control humanity, past, present and future. I invoke the Angels and Ascended Masters to re-align and heal all mis-used energy, to include the full restructuring of our DNA.

I invoke and dream awake the transmutation of all negative and judgmental projections. I invoke and dream awake my constant ability to be centered and balanced in my psychic perceptions and empathic nature. All overwhelming psychic energies are released by me automatically, easily, effortlessly. I Am Empowered by Everything! I invoke and dream awake my Lucid Dreaming each night I sleep and total remembering when I awake.

I invoke and dream awake my Infinite harmony with God/Goddess I Am. I invoke and dream awake the full expression of my Miraculous Healing Power. My Life is a continuous stream of Miracles. I invoke and dream awake my Infinite ability and willingness to receive all Life’s Blessings. I invoke and dream awake a constant attitude of Gratitude for my whole life, all my Accomplishments and Blessings, including the same for the Universe at Large. I invoke and dream awake the full Blessings of God/Goddess, the Ascended Masters, Angels, guides and Beings of Light to Bless this Earth.

I invoke and dream awake all my Decrees, Invocations and Prayers I have released to the Universe and open myself to God’s response, support and Love in my Highest Good. I invoke and dream awake the release of all past, present and future lifetimes of decrees and vows, which would bind me to limitation, lack, density and anything not of Ascension in this now. I invoke and dream awake the full reclaiming of my Eternal Self as Powerful, Loving and fully aligned in abundant God Consciousness. I invoke and dream awake the total dissolving of all manipulating forces, which would bind this earth plane in fear. I invoke and dream awake the influence of the Ascended Master realm and Angels to intercede and raise the vibrations higher, to bring darkness into the Light, raising the frequency of Love and God Consciousness on Planet Earth in this Now.

I Invoke and Dream Awake the Ascension of Planet Earth in this Now!


BREATHE 🌬️ Without breath and a heartbeat there is no life in our bodies.



Take 3 big breaths in filling your lungs and using your diaphragm, place your hands on your heart chakra (middle of your chest) and feel “you”.
Then when you breathe out make a sound (release) and out reach your arms (in whatever way you want).
CONGRATULATIONS ! You just did something 100% selfish for you. 😍
You also did something bewitchful for your body.

How do you feel now after doing this ?

NAKED CONFIDENCE – Do you have it ?

… and I totally get it that most women (esp. around my age – I’m nearly 40) don’t have the same confidence with their naked bare bodies as I do.
I was able to free myself from the prison of my mind around my body back in my 20s when I was in an industry that thrives on the objectification of women: adult entertainment and “glamour” modelling.
It wasn’t easy. I *nearly* succumbed to getting a boob job (breast enhancement) at one point (plenty of women did).
Then when I started to discover my (bi)sexuality for the first time … My perception of my own body and that of other women changed.
Thanks to 7-8 years in the industry that’s a *lot* of naked women of different ages from 18yos to ladies who were well into their 30s … wow. The naked female form is magnificent.
Yes, even the ones with scars, flabby-ness, “bigger” ladies or what-have-you. There were a lot of imperfect strippers more than those who are perceived as perfect (and even then it was a bit of “smoke and mirrors” happening with fake tan, make-up, the way you move your body, etc).
Because you know what really mattered in the end ?
What guys in the strip clubs were drawn to the most ?
What I found most attractive and memorable ?
If you can stand in front of a mirror and smile without shame/self-loathing/self-criticism – I want to give you applause because *that* is actually not that common
As my experience with Beck Joan & her project The Tunnel Vision (Internationally acclaimed Nude Art photographer) this morning allowed me to experience.
Not surprising to those who really know me … I was the last woman to dress herself after being naked for hours this morning.
(And since we had all been bare naked since like 6-something am .. it was a bit chilly .. by the time 8-am-whatever rolled around the sun was awake.)
To be honest, I was really enjoying having the morning sun on my skin as I find it pleasurable and revitalising.
I wasn’t thinking “what if someone sees me” (tho’ it was a pretty private location) ..
I wasn’t thinking anything to be honest as I was enjoying connecting (even just in presence) with all the other women at the shoot.
I also had a fantastic time as it was …
believe it or not
my first ever GROUP art nude type of photo shoot
I’d been photographed solo all of my “glamour modelling career” in my 20s.
I didn’t even know I had this sort of experience on my “bucket list” until now.
I’m glad Universe gift-ed me this experience.
My hope is that I was able to ‘gift’ the other women my ability to show and shine …
Being naked is fun.
Being naked is free-ing.
Being naked is pleasure.

Where are you on your business journey ?

Learn more about the 5 Stages of Business ( click here

The journey of Vanessa – Pet Guardian

💰 Stage 1) Dream up – There is no business yet – only a dream, idea, or desire for one

💖 Yup, had the idea back in 2007 when I knew my time in the adult entertainment business was coming to an end. I was also running a boutique (yet busy!) “promotional models and entertainment” agency for South East QLD thru to Byron Bay NSW at the time.
Initially I thought I would be a groomer and pursued that .. then I randomly came across .. at the time it had “Business For Sale” at he top of the website (this was back in the simple days of HTML websites).
For $500 (a bargain in my opinion as the website was already ranked well with at least 3 years worth of domain registration paid for up-front) … I had a business !
I also had the client list however it was worth $0. I knew the website would be my ‘golden ticket’ for customers … and it was and still is to this day.
(Back then it was called “Gold Coast Pet Sitting” or short-form was “gcpets”.)

💰 Stage 2) Start up – sales have started to come in, you found a pocket of customers or clients, and the excitement of having your business has begun (but sometimes that comes with overwhelm too)

💖 I remember this .. there came a point .. a very scary point where operating the agency and operating my pet care biz clashed. I had to make a choice. Eventually I created the choice for myself (aka “universe stepped in to hurry me up!”) … and got fired from the agency (which subsequently resulted in that agency going belly-up as it relied on me heavily) … and went “all in” for the pet care biz.
I still remember how scary it was to have to rely upon my pet care biz full time. It was also the best thing that could have happened as all of a sudden I had TIME to be able to devote to networking and building it.

💰 Stage 3) Ramp up – that point along the path to scaling up your business, where the sales and profits are giving you the opportunity to breathe a lot easier. This is the place that most entrepreneurs have the capabilities to build their businesses to, with the grit and hustle they personally possess; however, it’s also the ceiling for most businesses.

💖 I reached this point around 3-4 years into my pet care biz journey. (note: I’m in year 10 as of this year – 2017.) It took a lot of long hours, sweat (lots of dog walking, driving!! and meet n greets – hence the reason my metabolic rate has been so high even on my laziest days) and tears to build it to this point … yet it was here.
Yes, I had a “team” of sub-contractors. I was also well networked locally with all the other pet carers since I seemed to be the only one bothering to network with “my colleagues” (I never saw anyone as competition).

💰 Stage 4) Scale up – you’ve unshackled yourself from a lot of the ‘daily activities’ of the business and you have a team in place doing all that stuff. But it is likely that profits have taken a dip as a result of increased people power.

💖 Yup. I remember this sweet spot – it was around year 5-6 ? Not sure on the timing however I remember being gone and uncontactable for a whole week … and my business operated fine without me. I also remember how I finally had an “easy” Christmas period … because my team had it all under control.
Maria was a vital component of the team and a huge reason why I reached this point (as I wasn’t afraid to delegate).
It was around this point thanks to all the systems and processes I had created and/or put in place like LeashTime (online based booking/invoice system for pet care businesses) people also started to talk to me about possibly licensing or franchising the business.
I *seriously* considered these options.
…. and yes due to the fact I had to pay Maria (my VPA – Virtual Personal Assistant) … had to pay all my sub-contractors … had to pay for Leashtime (the cost increases as use increases) … had to pay for just *MORE* … I did have a few weeks where I struggled and freaked out as to how I was going to pay everyone, everything and my own life expenses (yes, debts).
Now you’d think … “I had it made” … I did in a lot of ways yet I was miserable. I was always stressed (not in the healthy productive stress that keeps you moving way).
It was during one of the monthly staff meetings where everyone was discussing all the pets (as I was being very picky with which clients and when I would do them since I could) … I realised I was no longer happy with my business.
It needed to change. I was ready to change.
… and it subsequently was also around the time when I launched the first version of Lady Vee : Priestess of The Body (called Lady Vee : StripperLike Confidence ).
I started scaling back to be able to devote more time to Lady Vee. After a year or so of pursuing the first version of Lady Vee.. I decided to return to my pet care business. This time around for my pet care biz I would do it differently as it would be more personally branded … and hence Vanessa – Pet Guardian was born.
Vanessa – Pet Guardian is always going to be with me as it’s a vital part of who I am (my passion for pets) and what I’m about however I made the active decision to never go past Stage 2 (it nearly did this year).
Will I eventually abandon Lady Vee : Priestess of The Body and return to the ‘comfort’ of my pet care business ? Nope. There’s a distinct difference between the “stripper” version of Lady Vee and the current version – this one has the potential to play on a global stage as well as for the longer term.
I profoundly understand how the connection to my divine-self to provide for myself and my “loved ones” – both human and not-so-human – is vital.
Lady Vee : Priestess of The Body is at Stage 2 .. and thanks to my journey with Vanessa – Pet Guardian

So where are you in your business journey ?

Stop Using Gratitude As A Bypass To Your Anger

Let’s play a game .. 😁 .. I want you to comment below ..

“Fuck… then whatever you’re mad at.”

Get it out !! ALL OF IT !!!

Post in the comments below …

The only rule: you are *not* allowed to use gratitude as a bypass to your anger. GET ANGRY ! 😡😤👿
You are safe.
I am here to witness.
I am here to see you.


Let it all out ..

What are you bottling up? Feel free to play along with me.
The prompt: ““Fuck… then whatever you’re mad at ..”

PS Enjoyed this game ? Want to do it more often ?
All this will involve is YOU sending me a 60 second or less voice message each day (Messenger, WatsApp, Snapchat) and I will then return with a 60 second or less message of intuitive support for 7 days…
Send me a PM 📲 to connect


I am posting this because as soon as I found my soul-gift … my human (or ego or what-ever-you-want-to-call-it) has been trying to sabotage me (aka ‘bring me down’).
One of the ways it is doing so is by telling me I’m a fraud.
Guess what, I’m not letting that shitty talk fly!
I sat with this today whilst at the beach with the dogs.
I was feeling a little shitty (emotional).
I explored it.
For me it was the shadow to the light of my soul-gift.
I also saw how the whole concept of “being a fraud” or “finding something fraudulent” is based upon OTHER PEOPLES’ OPINIONS.
(( Yes I get there are laws however we’re talking more about mindset/beLIEfs about feeling like a fraud. ))
It is also scary operating in your truth and honouring your soul-gift … it can feel unsafe … it can feel deadly.
You can feel like you are going to die if people find out about the real you.
I get it.
Around 4 or so years into my (now decade-long) Vanessa – Pet Guardian business .. I was part of an intimate mastermind lead by Rossco Paddison (locally).
It was the only point in my whole life where feeling like a fraud had consumed me.
I feared people finding out about my past career in the adult entertainment industry.
I feared everything would blow up in my face !!
I feared losing approval of everyone
because I was holding onto the shame of being a sex worker !!
In the end, the shame wasn’t my own as (truthfully) I *never* shamed that part of my life.
Yes, I feared “the death of me” as such .. I feared the unknown as I had no idea or experience of what it was like to be seen, heard and loved for me .. all of me .. my truth
So .. as the others revealed their ‘secrets’ in that space ..
it finally came my turn.
My whole body was shaking, I was crying rivers of tears.
Then I said it.
“I used to work as a stripper!”
… and you can guess what happened next …
I started owning it and sharing it.
People were saying how they respected me for having the confidence to share it.
My business kept functioning (it even grew!).
My clients still adored me because they based their judgements on my present self and not my past.
I even created the first incarnation of Lady Vee : Priestess of The Body – “Lady Vee: StripperLike Confidence”
I led a group of 5 women on a 7 week journey in my home for my “Shy to StripperLike Confidence” program.
So .. yeh .. you can see why I found it interesting that I had this thought/beLIEf that I am being a fraud.
It is all stemming from how I have not public-ly admit that I have debts.
I feel like admitting that I am still working on my relationship with money …. and that I am actively working on ‘relationship/addiction’ to debt …
That I am still growing … still “figuring my shit out” …
Admitting all that … “makes me a fraud”
ESPECIALLY the fact that I’m *not* generating a shit-tonne of money …
That some weeks I am generating enough “to get by” …
Other weeks I’m generating enough to get by and pay back my debts .. and feel very abundant …
So now you know the real deal.
I want you to know that it is okay if you aren’t earning $2k per week.
I want you to know that it is okay if you are no where near earning $10k per week or month.
We *ALL* are still FIGURING IT OUT !!
I am in my truth.
It won’t be the ‘death’ of me that you know I am not perfect.


Send me a message 📲 to connect.
I am here to witness. (see you)
I am here to listen. (hear you)
I am here to re-connect you to your divinity. (love you)

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