MONEY. MEN. PLEASURE. PLAY.

Hello Monday 🌟🔥😃💖 .. what the hell has the rest of the week going to surprise me with ?!
 
MONEY 💰
 
Thanks to my human/victim not being heard, healed and released she was fucking with my abundance.
 
I am in love and appreciation that I earned enough to “get by” last week (a few debts didn’t get paid due to how I had earned so little that week)… by today all my accounts were starting to look bleak.
 
MEN. 🚹
 
Specifically one man in my life … triggered my victim. Interesting how I had been doing the chasing for months … interesting that I felt like I couldn’t get any of my needs met either by myself and or OTHER men.
 
Interesting I felt afraid to let him go … afraid I wouldn’t attract another or better or whatever relationship …
 
PLEASURE 💋 & PLAY 🌟
 
This is more than about sex. Sex is part of this equation however not the whole picture.
 
As much as I thought I was enjoying both of these in my life .. I wasn’t … especially how my last orgasm was .. well … on Tuesday. (Personally I love orgasms and having only one per week is a symptom – I prefer to have at minimum 3 per week. Considering all the different types, variety and intensities – it’s actually great for me to keep me connected/grounded/in flow.)
 
💥🔥💥
 
AS SOON AS I let my (inner) victim to be heard & witnessed .. allowed her to speak both words and energetically … she disappeared !
 
She got what she wanted … and I said to her:
 
Yes and now it is time for you to go. 👋🏼
 
(I used my own mix of doing an aspecting process, journalling exercise and turning triggers to treasure process.)
 
Im Sorry. Please Forgive Me. I Love You. Thank You.
 
💰💰💰 MONEY
 
After releasing my victim I let my inner masculine take charge … he sent off two invoices for dog walking that were due … he checked emails to find out there was a tantra client booking request for yesterday I missed 😳 (as I was too busy denying my victim to be released) …
 
And my inner feminine was busy sending out requests to the universe and listening to the intuitive guidance …
 
Thanks to her magick …
 
🚹 MEN !!
 
She helped me attract a tantra client for today!
 
I also feel finally ready to do something I had stopped myself from diving into because of fear — TINDER
 
Yes I am a TINDER virgin.
 
Also an old playmate has become a possibility 😜💋 as I realise now thanks to Ej Lorna Kristie and a few other women … I *can* attract the men I desire and require.
 
(and yes I will also be available for the other gender identities as I’ve recently become pansexual due to my Tantra work)
 
I also realised I am strong enough a woman to have my boundaries respected by myself. 👌🏼💕
 
( note: this is NOT an invite for you to be sleazy and send me inappropriate messages via FB. )
 
💋💥🌟 PLEASURE & PLAY
 
Thanks to some guidance from Rebecca (yet ultimately myself) … I unlocked yet another full body orgasm ..
 
This one was different tho to the one on Tuesday.
 
This one came without resistance as I was in surrender.
 
It really did feel like it started with my pussy then the energy/orgasm went all thru me.
 
I also let my pussy have a sunbathe after in thanks 💋💥🙏🏼
 
Plus I was (and still am at the time of this post) a little blissed out .. when I ate something .. I actually took pleasure in it .. experienced the food I was eating in a totally present mindful (different) way.
 
What was interesting when I was self pleasuring (more tantric type of masturbation – I used mostly breath, a little movement, touch (not necessarily on/near my pussy) and sound) … I remembered something Eyal said to me at his last workshop … and opened my eyes to “connect” with “universe” as my partner .. and I saw … a bee buzzing around (abundance totem) … a small yellow butterfly (another abundance totem) … my kitty cat who was interestingly drawn to me from wherever she was …
 
And curiously I felt “held” 🙌🏼 during it 💕
 
If you got all the way to the end – thank you 🙏🏼💕 I needed to “blog” it ❤️
 
Now time to “get my priestess on” (tantra client on his way!) 🌟💖
 
PS If you did read this all the way to the end – type the word GAZ 🐶😂

The Prosperity Praye

Read Aloud Every Day for 30 days

I am the source of all wealth.  I am rich with creative ideas. My mind abounds with new, original, inspired thoughts. What I have to offer is unique, and the world desires it.

My value is beyond reckoning. What the world needs and desires, I am ready to produce and give. What the world needs and desires, I recognize and fulfill. The bounty of my mind is without hindrance or limit. Nothing can stand in the way of my inspired creativeness.

The overflowing power of God life energy overcomes every obstacle, & pours out into the world, blessing & prospering everyone, & everything through me.

I radiate blessings, I radiate creativity, I radiate prosperity, I radiate loving service. I radiate Joy, Beauty, Peace, Wisdom & Power. Humanity seeks me and rewards me. I am beloved of the world.  I am wanted wherever I go.

I am appreciated. What I have to offer is greatly desired. What I have to offer brings a rich reward. Through my vision the world is blessed.  Through my clear thinking & steadfast purpose, wonderful new values come into expression.

My vision is as the vision of the mighty ones. My faith is as the faith of the undefeatable. My power to accomplish is unlimited. I, in my uttermost God Source, am all wealth, all power, all productivity. I hereby declare my financial freedom, NOW and henceforth forever!

A Curious Mind Creates Magick

I’ve been listening to my intuition and without question reaching out to a lot of people on my friends’ list with an invite to connect with me on a call.
 
I’ve been asking (as I am wanting to get to know those on my friends’ list here) to learn more about them and what it is they want to create or expand into that they feel is the next stage of their relationship with themselves / life.
 
I am wanting to connect with the people as people – beyond their Facebook profile.
 
It’s something I had avoided doing for a long long time … it was something I was asked to do many times by different mentors … I *know* it is through conversations that abundance results (in money, clarity, and many other ways).
 
It’s only now due to the fact I finally feel ‘connected’ to “me” that I can do this with more ease than I did before 💕
 
Here’s the thing: I AM GENUINELY CURIOUS — I am even upfront and truthful and state as such in the message: “call it a child’s curiosity and wanting to connect more with the people”
 
Thankfully most people have been receptive. Those who it hasn’t resonated with for whatever reason have usually ignored me or just said they’re too busy .. which is okay 💕
 
I have only had one person who due to her cautiousness couldn’t trust that I was genuine in my connection. I get it. I’m not belittling her as I used to be her !
 
Someone would say “HI” to me via FB Messenger and I’d shut them down in a heartbeat because of how closed off and cautious and distrusting I was about people. (Ultimately, I was self-loathing – not kidding – because someone who is connected to love isn’t naturally distrusting.)
 
Now ? I’m a *lot* more open. I’m more receptive. I’m more trusting for the reason why people are reaching out to me. Also, for the men, I’m not as harsh either as I used to be (and I was harsh). ( Strongly recommend Queen’s Code for anyone who wants to transform their relationships with men !! )
 
Whilst I am more open… I also have boundaries and enough self-love (confidence) to also enforce those boundaries if I feel they’re being crossed at any time. It’s OKAY to say NO ! It is also okay to ask people to ‘give you space’ or ‘not right now’ or whatever.
 
Oh.. and this also applies if the person does offer you a service at the end of the call. Selling is the act of releasing the person from the illusion into truth / from disempowerment to empowerment / from fear to trust / from death to life.
 
Selling is a gift of love.
 
… and I don’t always have phone calls that result in selling something … this phone call from which this testimonial (attached) came from ended up being a connection call. We both got to know each other so much more better 💕 and that’s the gift we gave to each other.
 
Every phone call for me is about curiosity.
 
“Sales is a divine intervention of love, truth and liberation.” — Lorna Johnson
 
I’m led by my intuition as to where the call will go – I have no set agenda.
 
If I feel called to offer (“make a sale”), then I will without apology or shame because how can I be shameful of offering something so loving:
 
To assist the person to lay down their struggle … to guide them out of their pattern of deep victimisation … to trust (truly) themselves … and better self-worth, valuing themselves ? 💕
 
Testimonial May 29 2017

Every phone call for me is about me using my intuition and just like any muscle .. the more it is used .. the more it develops. 💪🏽

 
During every call I am providing safe-harbour for every person to be themselves without judgement or shame … and ultimately understand that they are infinitely powerful beings that do not fear. 🙏🏽💥
 
… and hence the reason every phone call I get to create magick 🌟 through curiosity

New Moon Ceremony

This ceremony is an eclectic mix from various sources that I used for inspiration. It was inspired by the private New Moon Fire Ceremony I hosted last night in Palm Beach.  Feel free to do with others or by yourself .. and naturally tweak it as you see fit.

 
WELCOME
 
Ours is a circle, a circle of friendship,
and just like a circle, it goes on and on
endless, eternal, this circle of friendship;
 
— say your name and call in other people —
 
Enter our circle, for here you belong.
 
OPENING
 
God and Goddess, Guardian Angels, and Spiritual Guides
Please be present with us during this ritual
Bless this circle and keep those present protected
No unwanted entities are welcome here
Only pure, divine beings are invited into this space
 
Send to us winds of knowledge and wisdom,
From the fertile ground may we draw growth and stability,
May we ignite our spark of courage and inspiration,
May our intuition wash over us
To bless us in our circle
 
BREATHE + CONNECT + GROUND + CENTRE
 
REFLECT + INTENTION SETTING
 
Write down these words “I accept these things into my life now or something better for my highest good and for the highest good of all concerned.” or something similar at the top of your piece of paper. Below this statement, begin writing down your desires. Your list may consist of a single item or you may have several pages listing multiple items. Try not to limit yourself. If having many things in your life helps to fulfill you then don’t deny yourself wanting these things.
 
It is helpful to salt and pepper your manifest list with smaller items that will manifest quickly. You may think that smaller things are too trivial to put on your intention list… Wrong! Things that tend to manifest with less effort still deserve to be written down. Write down everything that you desire, no matter how little or simple. If it is something that makes you happy, write it down. Manifesting smaller items on our lists actually creates a steady flow of chi giving your list a boost. These smaller manifestations create movement, allowing an ebb and flow of the tides.
 
WITNESS + LET GO
 
Each woman present will stand at the fire, make the statement and then share what she feels drawn to share (keywords, what’s written or whatever) with those present. When she is ready put the paper into the fire – releasing it and letting it go.
 
CLOSING
 
God and Goddess, Guardian Angels, and Spiritual Guides
Thank You for Your presence here today
Thank You for sharing your …
deep mysteries and intuition,
inspiration and courage,
stability and growth,
wisdom and knowledge.
 
Stay if you will, go if you must,
But know that you are ever welcome in our hearts.
 
— END —
Remember to stay hydrated and to eat something healthy to assist you with grounding after the ceremony.

Your soul is constantly sending you messages

These message help us on our journey through life and to help make life easier for us (as souls ONLY know ease).

The Feather – the first (gentlest) message we get

The Brick – a not so gentle reminder

The Truck – a massive shift to life

The idea of the feather, the brick and the truck is our soul’s way of delivery of the message (depending upon if our human-self is listening or ignoring)…

I got the truck on Thursday and it took me most of Friday to ‘recover’ from that head on collision with it.

“You want to know the ONLY reason you’re exhausted ? You’re living a lie.” — Lorna Johnson

.. and that is the reason why my own personal battery (which is typically usually ‘fully charged’ and why I seem to have such a ‘big personality’ online) … thanks to what I did (all the decisions I had made which resulted in everything that happened) on Thursday … I was so drained … I felt intensely disconnected from myself … I was at such a low ‘ebb’ … and it was interesting what happened to me whilst I was in that space.

I started second guessing …
I started doubting …
I felt numb (I didn’t have ‘the energy’ to ‘feel’ anything!) …
I had lost my connection to “me” …
I had ‘no voice’ …

If you have a look at my posts from yesterday I relied heavily upon other peoples’ voices to be my own voice as I felt so energetically low .. that I had ‘nothing’ … I couldn’t ‘give’ from an empty cup.

When I understood this (which I did even whilst I was ‘experiencing’ what I experienced on Thursday) … I knew I had just had a major shift …

… and here are the steps I did to regain my energy …

I threw a tantrum then I did my tantric/reiki meditation.

I sent myself a lot of love and compassion.

I never made myself wrong – it just was something that happened based upon decisions I had made earlier in the week.

I listened *AND ACTED* upon my intuition.

It told me around midday to go sit out in the sun (this time on a bean bag – no ants biting my ass!!) to just “be” .. and hang out with Marnie and Garry. I have no f-ing clue how long I was out there .. the point is .. I didn’t question it .. I did it.

FUCK DID THAT HELP RE-CHARGE ME A LOT ! It’s was like a power boost .. going from empty to half full ..

How’d I re-charge to 100% ?

I made the commitment to myself to go ahead with the FB Live Lights On And Dance event I created awhile ago whilst also eating a lot of peppermint and staying hydrated.

The dancing was me “speaking” my truth

The dancing was me being myself unapologetically.

I spelled my name with my ass on FB Live and everyone can view it….

I was having fun.

The secret to bewitchful confidence ? Switch from fear to truth.

I want to invite you to get on a call with me to talk more about what it is you want to create or expand into that you feel is the next stage of your relationship with yourself / life … (call it a child’s curiosity and wanting to connect more with the people)

Let’s chat: www.bewitchfulconfidence.today

The trouble comes when you can’t come out from under the blankets…

You’re struggling? Good. That means you’re moving forward. Chasing something. Going after what you want.

Here’s the deal: Trying to change yourself or the world (both are interrelated) will eventually bring on doubt – about everything. What you do. Who you are. Who you want to be. All of it goes under the microscope. That’s normal.

The trouble comes when you can’t come out from under the blankets.

Whilst you’re learning how to switch your thoughts (there are numerous ways to learn to do this from ‘just doing it’, journalling, EFT/Tapping and so forth) .. something that also works great for me is a little tantric – using breath, sound, touch and movement.

Start moving your body especially focusing on moving your hips (however you want to move your hips there is no right or wrong here), caressing your body with your hands, feeling into your body whilst breathing.

Breathe in and do a full breath thru your diaphragm not the usual adult way thru your chest.. and on the out breath let whatever noise comes out.. come out. (If you don’t feel called to make a noise or cannot for whatever reason – that’s okay – just know you can let a groan, moan or whatever noise out on the out breath.)

Concentrate on the breath, hear the sound, feel your touch on your body and the movement of your body.

Do this for 5 mins and tell me how you feel … ?

If you start judging yourself, make a mental note when you did in this ritual and just keep going .. GET OUT OF YOUR HEAD and INTO YOUR BODY.

As soon as you’re in your body and out of your head you will FEEL .. and then you can uncover what’s under those low thoughts .. you’ll get more clarity. (They may not even be YOUR thoughts as sometimes we can take on other peoples’ beLIEfs about ourselves.)

All I know is the above works for me.

( Also KEEP YOURSELF HYDRATED as dehydration is also linked to depression. Have a drink of something WITHOUT sugar or caffeine in it. )

If you find anger is under this feeling low, take it out on a pillow: screaming into it is an oldie but a goodie that works for me to release anger. (There are other ways – PM me if you want to know more.)

Then breath again. Never underestimate the power of breathing.

It’s the reason we all do what we do …. EVEN WHEN WE ARE BABIES …..

10520418_335934729925352_1748736199628240137_nJust finished watching something about Status Anxiety.

Nope. Not to do with Facebook. It’s to do with “our pursuit of status”.

Even the lack thereof.

I found it just confirmed my suspicions on why we act the way we do on social media INCLUDING #Periscope….

On why Periscopers want a million hearts… want interactive viewers… why viewers want broadcasters to acknowlege them… why Essena O’Neill (http://www.theguardian.com/media/2015/nov/03/instagram-star-essena-oneill-quits-2d-life-to-reveal-true-story-behind-images) behaved like she did on her own social media (before quitting – and even in quitting she’s still adhering to this basic tenant)…

It’s the reason I am posting this status update. It’s the reason we all do what we do …. EVEN WHEN WE ARE BABIES …..

We want to be valued, wanted and loved.

As humans we’re hard wired for it even when we think we’re not. We still seek that connection with another human somehow to feel valued, wanted and loved.

It’s what really drives us to do what we all do… everyday.

Some get this thru status symbols, some from “their tribe”, others from viewers/hearts on Periscope, a thank you from your kid …. and explains why we all adore our pets <3 ….

As much as we all try to not seek the approval of others … have a look at your life… REALLY LOOK… we ultimately do care what other people think of us.

I’ve always understood this… it’s the reason why I struggle whenever I’m kicked out of a FB group… I’ve always innately knew this universal truth amongst all of us… why I “liked” some people and didn’t like other people…

This is the reason why I jumped all over Periscope … it’s why I’m wanting to be a guide-post for those new to Periscope… it’s why some of my best PeriShows (according to www.bit.ly/FulllScopeTool) … were the ones which were also… unsurprisingly… the most interactive where my viewers also felt valued, wanted and loved.

It’s why I sign off my PeriShows blowing kisses as I want people to feel wanted, valued and loved.

It’s where JOY springs from ultimately.

So … with that… it’ll be interesting to see how many of my “friends” like this status update… (irony much?)