Hello Monday ✨🌟🔥😃💖 .. what the hell has the rest of the week going to surprise me with ?!
Thanks to my human/victim not being heard, healed and released she was fucking with my abundance.
I am in love and appreciation that I earned enough to “get by” last week (a few debts didn’t get paid due to how I had earned so little that week)… by today all my accounts were starting to look bleak.
Specifically one man in my life … triggered my victim. Interesting how I had been doing the chasing for months … interesting that I felt like I couldn’t get any of my needs met either by myself and or OTHER men.
Interesting I felt afraid to let him go … afraid I wouldn’t attract another or better or whatever relationship …
PLEASURE 💋 & PLAY 🌟
This is more than about sex. Sex is part of this equation however not the whole picture.
As much as I thought I was enjoying both of these in my life .. I wasn’t … especially how my last orgasm was .. well … on Tuesday. (Personally I love orgasms and having only one per week is a symptom – I prefer to have at minimum 3 per week. Considering all the different types, variety and intensities – it’s actually great for me to keep me connected/grounded/in flow.)
AS SOON AS I let my (inner) victim to be heard & witnessed .. allowed her to speak both words and energetically … she disappeared !
She got what she wanted … and I said to her:
Yes and now it is time for you to go. 👋🏼
(I used my own mix of doing an aspecting process, journalling exercise and turning triggers to treasure process.)
Im Sorry. Please Forgive Me. I Love You. Thank You.
After releasing my victim I let my inner masculine take charge … he sent off two invoices for dog walking that were due … he checked emails to find out there was a tantra client booking request for yesterday I missed 😳 (as I was too busy denying my victim to be released) …
And my inner feminine was busy sending out requests to the universe and listening to the intuitive guidance …
Thanks to her magick …
🚹 MEN !!
She helped me attract a tantra client for today!
I also feel finally ready to do something I had stopped myself from diving into because of fear — TINDER
Yes I am a TINDER virgin.
Also an old playmate has become a possibility 😜💋 as I realise now thanks to Ej Lorna Kristie and a few other women … I *can* attract the men I desire and require.
(and yes I will also be available for the other gender identities as I’ve recently become pansexual due to my Tantra work)
I also realised I am strong enough a woman to have my boundaries respected by myself. 👌🏼💕
( note: this is NOT an invite for you to be sleazy and send me inappropriate messages via FB. )
💋💥✨🌟 PLEASURE & PLAY
Thanks to some guidance from Rebecca (yet ultimately myself) … I unlocked yet another full body orgasm ..
This one was different tho to the one on Tuesday.
This one came without resistance as I was in surrender.
It really did feel like it started with my pussy then the energy/orgasm went all thru me.
I also let my pussy have a sunbathe after in thanks 💋💥🙏🏼
Plus I was (and still am at the time of this post) a little blissed out .. when I ate something .. I actually took pleasure in it .. experienced the food I was eating in a totally present mindful (different) way.
What was interesting when I was self pleasuring (more tantric type of masturbation – I used mostly breath, a little movement, touch (not necessarily on/near my pussy) and sound) … I remembered something Eyal said to me at his last workshop … and opened my eyes to “connect” with “universe” as my partner .. and I saw … a bee buzzing around (abundance totem) … a small yellow butterfly (another abundance totem) … my kitty cat who was interestingly drawn to me from wherever she was …
And curiously I felt “held” ✨🙌🏼 during it 💕
If you got all the way to the end – thank you 🙏🏼💕 I needed to “blog” it ❤️
Now time to “get my priestess on” (tantra client on his way!) 🌟✨💖
PS If you did read this all the way to the end – type the word GAZ 🐶😂