MONEY. MEN. PLEASURE. PLAY.

Hello Monday ✨🌟πŸ”₯πŸ˜ƒπŸ’– .. what the hell has the rest of the week going to surprise me with ?!
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MONEY πŸ’°
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Thanks to my human/victim not being heard, healed and released she was fucking with my abundance.
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I am in love and appreciation that I earned enough to “get by” last week (a few debts didn’t get paid due to how I had earned so little that week)… by today all my accounts were starting to look bleak.
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MEN. 🚹
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Specifically one man in my life … triggered my victim. Interesting how I had been doing the chasing for months … interesting that I felt like I couldn’t get any of my needs met either by myself and or OTHER men.
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Interesting I felt afraid to let him go … afraid I wouldn’t attract another or better or whatever relationship …
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PLEASURE πŸ’‹ & PLAY 🌟
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This is more than about sex. Sex is part of this equation however not the whole picture.
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As much as I thought I was enjoying both of these in my life .. I wasn’t … especially how my last orgasm was .. well … on Tuesday. (Personally I love orgasms and having only one per week is a symptom – I prefer to have at minimum 3 per week. Considering all the different types, variety and intensities – it’s actually great for me to keep me connected/grounded/in flow.)
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πŸ’₯πŸ”₯πŸ’₯
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AS SOON AS I let my (inner) victim to be heard & witnessed .. allowed her to speak both words and energetically … she disappeared !
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She got what she wanted … and I said to her:
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Yes and now it is time for you to go. πŸ‘‹πŸΌ
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(I used my own mix of doing an aspecting process, journalling exercise and turning triggers to treasure process.)
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Im Sorry. Please Forgive Me. I Love You. Thank You.
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πŸ’°πŸ’°πŸ’° MONEY
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After releasing my victim I let my inner masculine take charge … he sent off two invoices for dog walking that were due … he checked emails to find out there was a tantra client booking request for yesterday I missed 😳 (as I was too busy denying my victim to be released) …
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And my inner feminine was busy sending out requests to the universe and listening to the intuitive guidance …
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Thanks to her magick …
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🚹 MEN !!
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She helped me attract a tantra client for today!
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I also feel finally ready to do something I had stopped myself from diving into because of fear — TINDER
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Yes I am a TINDER virgin.
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Also an old playmate has become a possibility πŸ˜œπŸ’‹ as I realise now thanks to Ej Lorna Kristie and a few other women … I *can* attract the men I desire and require.
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(and yes I will also be available for the other gender identities as I’ve recently become pansexual due to my Tantra work)
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I also realised I am strong enough a woman to have my boundaries respected by myself. πŸ‘ŒπŸΌπŸ’•
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( note: this is NOT an invite for you to be sleazy and send me inappropriate messages via FB. )
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πŸ’‹πŸ’₯✨🌟 PLEASURE & PLAY
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Thanks to some guidance from Rebecca (yet ultimately myself) … I unlocked yet another full body orgasm ..
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This one was different tho to the one on Tuesday.
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This one came without resistance as I was in surrender.
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It really did feel like it started with my pussy then the energy/orgasm went all thru me.
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I also let my pussy have a sunbathe after in thanks πŸ’‹πŸ’₯πŸ™πŸΌ
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Plus I was (and still am at the time of this post) a little blissed out .. when I ate something .. I actually took pleasure in it .. experienced the food I was eating in a totally present mindful (different) way.
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What was interesting when I was self pleasuring (more tantric type of masturbation – I used mostly breath, a little movement, touch (not necessarily on/near my pussy) and sound) … I remembered something Eyal said to me at his last workshop … and opened my eyes to “connect” with “universe” as my partner .. and I saw … a bee buzzing around (abundance totem) … a small yellow butterfly (another abundance totem) … my kitty cat who was interestingly drawn to me from wherever she was …
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And curiously I felt “held” βœ¨πŸ™ŒπŸΌ during it πŸ’•
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If you got all the way to the end – thank you πŸ™πŸΌπŸ’• I needed to “blog” it ❀️
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Now time to “get my priestess on” (tantra client on his way!) πŸŒŸβœ¨πŸ’–
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PS If you did read this all the way to the end – type the word GAZ πŸΆπŸ˜‚

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